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Once the weight comes, Iām outta state triple sums
Stop my funds, I got guns to cripple sons
Whatās the use of heat, with no dough to flee the street
Caught a case with no trace of end, youāre dead meat
All my lifts tested for the year and genuinely surprised that Iāve managed to retain as much strength as i have and lose weight, some lifts even going up considerably, and percentage comparison putting me at, by ratio, the strongest Iāve been while transitioning and with my testosterone blocked. Guess Iām pushing myself a lot harder than before, and I certainly dont feel as taxed from lifting.
Going to be using this as a basis for competition next year. Dont care about being a trans woman fighting guys in judo, Iāll just have to out work them.
Book is going well, 20% of the edits and spellchecking done. Got the house to myself, organising seeing friends. Reserved the venison leg and red wine gravy is going nicely in prep for christmas, dog is a lot happier on new pain meds, and my ffs quote now being what it is, Iām confident i can knock over my solo martial arts world tour easily. Then its just write books, coach people and build up the animation work again.
Life is calm, problems feel solved, what I want is achievable and I have not felt peace like this ever. I still need some degree of rest, like, but I am finally getting life to where I need it to be.
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When Black Friday comes
Iāll stand down by the door
And catch the gray men when they
Dive from the fourteenth floor
When Black Friday comes
Iāll collect everything Iām owed
And before my friends find out
Iāll be on the road
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Strange voice on the telephone
Tellinā me I better leave you ālone
Why wonāt somebody say whatās goinā on
Oh, oh, I think Iāve been through this before
You never said you had no longer to
I need to know 'bout it if you do
If two is one, I might as well be three
Itās good to see you think so much of me
Looks like Iāve been fooled again
Looks like Iām the fool again
I do like it, I do like it
When I was a little boy
I wanted a Barlow knife
Now I want little Shady Grove
To say sheāll be my wife
Shady Grove, my little love
Shady Grove, I say
Shady Grove, my little love
Iām bound to go away
You say to me
That I should whisper
Stay quiet please
Silence has made me
Fire
end of the year coming up so work is getting quieter. Im using this time to clear out my mums possessions I held onto for no good reason than an unwillingness to let her go. Shoes she bought and never got around to wearing, that kind of stuff. Her most treasured items like her original Charlie Chaplin statue and her old jumper the dog likes to sleep with are staying.
Itās a new year coming, Im in a new phase of my life, and I want to keep it that way.
Novel editing is about 20-25% done, its mostly spelling errors and making sure Im consistent with some descriptions, but it should be a job for the weekends.
New clients, will be teaching classes again soon and Im going to take up some boxing in the time between now and my surgery in France, so I can at least learn the headmovement I never got in knockdown karate.
Training is going well: Squat, Bench, Deadlift, Overhead Press, Farmers Carries and Bent over Row are stables with complimenting accessory work.
Found I can force an ADHD hyperfocus session, but it requires biblical levels of caffiene.
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Nope, donāt bother.
Donāt provide any boxing or ADHD bullshit, asshole.
Youāre not worthy
I put a spell on you
Because youāre mine
You better stop the things you do
I tell you, I aināt lying
I aināt lying
mmmhh
Oh, we danced through the night
And we held each other tight.
And before too long, I fell in love with her
Now, Iāll never dance with another
Woo, since I saw her standinā there
Who hurt you, sad boy?
Thereās a dark cloud above your head
Who hurt you, sad boy?
You act like youāre already dead
But you think too much
Yeah, you think too much
Who hurt you, fashion boy?
Thereās a dark cloud above your head
Who hurt you, sad boy?
You act like youāre already dead
But you think too much
Probably drink too much
Bathe in that blue light, baby
'Cause here comes the night
Your truest friend
If you take a life do you know what youāll give?
Odds are you wonāt like what it is
When the storm arrives would you be seen with me
By the merciless eyes of deceit?
Iāve seen angels fall from blinding heights
But you yourself are nothing so divine
Just next in line
Arm yourself because no one else here will save you
The odds will betray you
And I will replace you
You canāt deny the prize it may never fulfill you
It longs to kill you, are you willing to die?
The coldest blood runs through my veins
You know my name
Iām prepared for this
I never shoot to miss
But I feel like a storm is cominā
If Iām gonna make it through the day
Then thereās no more use in runninā
This is somethinā I gotta face
If I risk it all
Could you break my fall?
Long day, had to take a massive nap to accomadate the exhaustion.
New position at work in the next few months.
Sorted out the days, budget and locations for my world travels and as overwhelming as a lot of it looked, the martial arts exclusive trip isā¦ surprisingly cheaper than I anticipated. If I told you that the longest location of any stay would be three months in Chen Village to learn Taijiquan thoroughly and the whole thing still only works out to be 9K before flightsā¦ now i feel like Im dreaming too small.
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