How fucking sad am I right now.
been with this girl a year and a half. gorgeous thing, funny, smart, beautiful, all that shit. We got along so well, just clicked from day one. After a year, we had a breakup. only lasted a few days before she came crawling back, begging for a second shot, that she had made a mistake. I took her back but my trust in her was pretty shaken.
Anyway over the last 2 months it had become quite shaky again, she was finishing her dissertation and while I was doing my best to support her it was a lot of strain. on the day she actually handed it in we had an arguement, the next day in the heat of the moment i told her it was over, then almost immediately said i was sorry, that i didnt mean it. she said ok but she needed some time to think. week goes by, i get in contact with her again. we hang out a lot for a couple of days before she goes off to a navy training fortnight thing (shes in the reserves) where she says she will think about everything thats happened and tell me when she gets back. Now she left on the friday, and on the wednesday i saw her running from the uni gym, in her gym gear etc, with some guy. she saw me and said she would explain later as they ran off. My immediate thought was that she was seeing the guy.
I talked to her the next day and she said that he was a PTI instructor that the navy sent out, that she had a swimming test that she hadnt done that needed to be done that day. she seemed genuine so i believed her, and she went off on her navy trip.
2 weeks later she comes back, and tells me she thinks we should just be friends. to be honest I kind of expected it, even though i didnt want it. We didn’t talk much over the next few days, she seemed to be very busy, supposedly with her navy and uni stuff.
Last night she came round to grab some of her stuff, and to talk to me about her training and everything. we got along fine, i felt a little emotional but we just talked for hours about our relationship, what things worked and what didnt etc. by the end i felt much better, right up until she hit me with this-
The guy she was running with wasn’t a PTI instructor, he was a guy from uni and they were running to go to a concert. she had also had a lunchdate with him. this was literally days after we had “broken up” (despite that being a heat of the moment backlash to something she had said, and was meaningless). she had lied, convincingly, to my face about what she had been doing that day. Whether or not she knew the guy before we had our arguement i have no idea. But what it tells me is that she must have been fucking relieved when i told her i didnt want to see her. and that for those weeks afterwards she was “trying out” this new guy, but keeping me on the leash in case it fell through. when she came back and it was still on with this guy she had obviously decided he was the new thing and had spent the days before she came to get her stuff with this guy.
What makes it a little sweeter for me though is that when she came round yesterday, she was nervous and fidgety and seemed upset. i figured it was just because of the situation. after i told her to get the fuck out of my apartment, she sent me a txt telling me that earlier in the day the guy had told her that because she hadnt put out yet, he was fucking someone else, and they broke up. So not only had she left me for the kind of asshole that she had hated herself for dating before, she let me off my “leash” just a few days too early. hahaha. i hope she continues dating fucking assholes who use her and leave her, because im safe in the knowledge that i treated her with love, the same way i would treat any girl i was serious about, and one day ill stumble upon a girl who is the same way.
morale of this story- even the most seemingly amazing girl can be a backstabbing whore.