Hi fellas,
This my first post here and I have a dilemma. I’ve been practicing at a NY “underground” TKD organization for about eight years, and now I’m starting to suspect that I might have become stuck in a mcdojo. The dues seem like a very good deal per month at $125 for what I’m getting. And, they are very flexible if you are not in the best financial situation like I am now. They let me $25 per class, and if I don’t have the cash they give me time to get it.
For comparison, around 5 years ago club dues used to be $15 and test were $100-200 with BB test being $500, and even lower in the past I think.
After coming back from a long hiatus two years ago, things seem different. There are more child black belts, some as young as 10??? Also, I cannot go full out because I was told even at the beginning of my training that I “always respect upper belts,” which I do. The veterans do want me to attack them hard, and like it. but, the newer BB feel somehow “disrespected”???
It is a weird situation because among them they are a few of these veteran, muscular & burly guys who have been practicing for like 30 years and have no problem tapping me in the face, making a some contact with kicks and sweeping me to the ground hard. BTW, I LOVE IT.
Now I am being promoted to the rank of BB and my organization wants $1000 for it + I have to shell out another $450 to go and take it at karate camp. I don’t even think they will provide me with food. They have a way to make you feel bad for respectfully questioning things and there is an element of “group think.” Again, strangely the veterans come and go as they please and seen to be a little dissociated from the pack.
Then there is an element of a “core group” that handles all the money and arrangements for the headmaster. They are like the gate keepers with little transparency. The whole thing feels more like a business now then it ever was. I don’t even think they pay much.
I don’t know, may be I’m too much of an idealist.
This is what we practice.
- Ancient style of TKD (don’t want to specify)
- Forms (with extreme intensity)
- “Freestyle” (no contact with noted exceptions & with extreme intensity)
- One step (with extreme intensity)
- lots of bag work, although it is less now for some reason.
I always leave practice drained and many times bruised in my arms legs etc, sometimes lightly injured.
Sorry for the long post, I just want to be clear. This message board rocks! Latter.